The Tyranny of Always

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I always get nauseous before speaking
I always get headaches when I fly
I always end up getting screwed
I always freeze at exam time
I always come in last place
I always get there late
I always get rejected
I always lose
I always…

Ahhhhh, the tyranny of always.

The minute we attach always to a negative outcome, we train our brains to expect it. We lull ourselves into believing our past is our future. We make inevitable what is, until that moment, simply a projection.

Sure, that projection may be based on real data. Failed attempts and repeated rebuffs. Maybe the last 10 flights have ended in headaches. Maybe the last 3 tests have led to anxiety. Maybe the last 5 attempts at exercise have ended with feelings of dejection and a pint of ice-cream on the couch.

The past will always “inform” the future. To deny that is to delude. Yet, it need not “determine” the future.

The world of writing is a powerful example. Many of the most successful authors were rejected by publishers dozens (some, hundreds) of times, before getting a deal or having a breakout book.

Agatha Christie was rejected for five years before landing her first deal, and going on to sell more than $2 billion of books. J.K. Rowling’s original Harry Potter manuscript was rejected a dozen times before being accepted by an editor at Bloomsbury, along with guidance that Rowling should keep her day job. Margaret Mitchell was rejected 38 times before selling Gone With the Wind. Walt Disney was fired from his newspaper job, because he lacked imagination. Theodor Seuss Geisel, a/k/a Dr. Seuss, had his first book rejected by 27 publishers.

Had they stopped because the past was riddled with rejection and assumed that would “always” be the case, the world would not have benefitted from these great works. And, they would’ve lived lives of profoundly stifled expression and potential.

Telling ourselves the story of “always + undesired outcome” wreaks havoc, not just on our ability to succeed, but on our lives. We begin to see failure and pain as a matter of fate. We stop believing a successful outcome is possible. That disbelief in possibility leads to inaction, which in turn seals the inevitability of our past becoming our future.

I’m not asking anyone to wade into the pool of delusional optimism…

Yes, it may take a long time. Yes, we may get knocked to the ground a hundred times first. Yes, we may still struggle. Yes, other people may nail it on the first try, while we continue to get taken down. Yes, not getting what we want out of the gate sucks. Yes, we may still fail, no matter how many paths to success we try.

But, then again, we may not…

And, here’s the interesting thing about success that comes after a mounting lineage of defeat. If and when we finally break out. If and when we stop getting knocked down. If and when the struggle begins to ease. If and when we’re the one who nails it, it will matter so much more. We will feel it so much more deeply than if it had just been signed, sealed and delivered on day one.

We dream of instant success, devoid of effort or struggle or denial. And, who could argue with the desire for a little more ease along the way. But truth is, all too often, success without effort is hollow.

It is the very fact that it didn’t come easily that imbues triumph with meaning.

Still, none of this becomes real until we back away from the tyranny of always. Until we stop torturing ourselves with false negative absolutes. Until we change always to not yet, or maybe. Or, what if? Until we crack open the window, even a smidge, to possibility.

Words matter. Even the ones nobody hears but us. The ones uttered only in the cavernous reaches of our psyche. Especially those.

Time to step out from under the reign of the tyranny of always. To stand in a place of possibility.

Yes. Our past will always inform our future. But it need not seal it.


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12 responses

12 responses to “The Tyranny of Always”

  1. Ben foley says:

    Beautifully written. This is something I deal with and see others deal with all the time. I will always be anxious. Or I will always be poor. It comes from a scarcity mindset of the world in which one cannot control their future but rather their future is controlled by others. Like you so eloquently wrote, yeah we probably will suffer, but that should not stop us. Because it does no define who we will become; it actually just might be the very thing that differentiates us for the masses.

  2. I love everything about this article. Great words.

  3. Sue Maclaren says:

    Arnold Wesker wrote.
    your great grandfather said there would always be horses, your grandfather said there would always be slaves, your father said there would always be wars. Each time you say always the worlds takes two steps backwards and stops bothering.

  4. Wow. This is absolutely spot on! Thank you for the depth and genuine encouragement to march on!

  5. Linda says:

    You “always” inspire me Jonathan Fields.
    I love everything about this article and the way it makes me feel. Thanks!

  6. Tracy Hill says:

    WOW! Did I need to remember this today. I have interviewed 5 social media people to work for me this last week…and no one gets back, or they are way to costly. But because of this in my email I will simply keep moving forward and think of these beautiful words. You are always there for me when I need you. Thanks so much! Would take the 108, but money just is not there now. Will be thinking about all of you learning and having fun.

  7. Great article and so true!

  8. Edie Campbell says:

    This was an inspiring article, and I will save it for two 2017 High-School graduates for next May!

  9. Beautifully said, Jonathan. The great mystery/crime novelist, Hank Phillippi Ryan ( spoke at an event I produced, and said that she and her husband began to call the day BEFORE they met, “You never know day.”
    Since then, they wake up and believe that every day is “You Never Know Day”. I think this is great advice, especially for us writers, artists, and folks struggling to find work or to heal the broken systems of our lives. Thank you.

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  11. Ellen says:

    Really loved this post Jonathan. It is so true that the way we speak to ourselves, and the way we think about ourselves can really shape our mindset and experiences in life. This reminded me of a workshop I did on the concept of World Work. The workshop leader spoke of the way we think of ourselves eg. “I am the kind of person who always…” or “I am not[x] kind of person” suggests that the opposite of that might be something we need to let into our lives. So if we say “I am always scared speaking publicly” then perhaps we need to do more public speaking, and act like someone who is happy doing it.

  12. I always forget how true this is.